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We are all just so different people. We all have different believes we all learn differently. So how can one think that they know whats best for you. We and I know myself better than anyone else. For someone to force me or push me or coerce me in a direction just makes me turn straight back around. I like finding things out my own way. I like doing things in my own time frame. For example I am clueless about my religion I went to church and a lot of it went in one ear out the other. Another example is moving out.

My Mom doesn't want to get another house so we the 4 of us all grown I might add live in a small as house that is out grown. Instead of looking at another house selling this one getting another one that is a bit bigger shes taking all the s**t out of storage and stuffing it in his house. What she does is buy more s**t stuffs it in the house buys more s**t stuffs it in the house and never gets rid of it. Its a nice continuous cycle. To add the icing on the cake my Mom decided to clean out the living room and throw all my s**t in my room. Basically shes pushing me out.

If she gets me out of the house then my family wouldn't have to move and she wouldn't have to give up buying crap b/c she would have to pay a mortgage instead. If I moved out there's a whole new room for stuff smile . My Mom wants me to move out she hasn't said it but she has stuff for me ready when I do move. A coffee table a microwave, dishes ,and tons of kitchen stuff, she'll probably throw my childhood books at me too ( maybe not). My Mom is never around (usually asleep because she works at night) but when she is its annoying she trashes stuff in the kitchen that I bought and adds more stuff to my room on top of the stuff I haven't already gone through. Its probably 2 weeks at least since we looked at the house. It was really nice and spacious (from the picture). Mr. Remax didn't show up. She never even called the lady to look at it. She says she'll discuss it with my Dad and I'm sure he would be fine with him. It didn't have a garage but it was a bigger house in a nice neighborhood. Either way of what I know of I would get stuck moving ( if they ever did and if my Mom would ever just move on ).

I guess there are just so many things to deal with that you don't needed new ones to add on. I feel like I don't have to add onto whatever I have to then I shouldn't. I don't maintain things very well so I'd rather add another I can't maintain or just feel as though all my efforts went to waist. Other times I feel like I'm running from things. But for someone who hardly knows me to try to or at least it feels like say whats best for is irritating. People can say that they know me and know whats best for me and I know they want to help but sometimes I like figuring things out on my own. Yah I know there nice gestures and they care but Its a little over bearing and rushing me. "I'm just trying to be me".