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Dear Journal,

Ever have things that you should have or could have or would have done playing in your head over and over? I do. I just end up in my box and lack the motivation to do somethings. Other times I just focus way too much on what happened in the past.

I bumped into a lady walking down the street to go to the con line. I bumped into her and she was all "excuse you" I was like "oh excuse me very quit" " I said it the second time looking in her eyes (really big beaty ones).

She then started talking randomly to some black dudes and started rambling on about "White America". I have No clue what the ******** that is suppose to mean except the white race has held them back? You finally got Obama and your still not happy? Your not African American. She didn't directly come from Africa. There's few white folks that are from South Africa. So their African Americans. It would have been 3 against one if I were to ask her what the ******** she meant. I would have just stood their and listened and said nothing back. She'd probably want an argument. I said "excuse me". She's deaf I can't help that.

What the hell is wrong with people. When I got home I double checked to see if the dude was a *****. He wasn't. He was like a creepy ugly fat bald guy who was like almost 50 or maybe 50 something who asked me out. I thought he was joking. I guess you can't stereotype white dudes huh? I'm better off asking some dude out. I'd feel better rejected by a few then accepted by a pervert twice my age. The sad part was I had black pants and a black t-shirt. It wasn't like I had a tank top on or anything. Can't assume anything can I?

I don't really know what I want in a guy I can say older geeky guy with some kind of morals and judgment but then I could be wrong. Yeah I'll just start talking to guys on my space or something. First will be the dorky musician who wouldn't say their age but left the high school group of 1990 something up. Who puts on their page their Christian? What the hell does that mean? You want someone Christian? I guess, right?


Hachi_ateyou