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First off, today is my birthday. It started out a pretty good day too, but things have been going a bit down hill ever since, and now I feel like I need to vent. I don't want to drag my boyfriend down though, or b***h at my friends, so I decided maybe this was the way to go. Even if no body cares or responds, at least I can write it all out and hopefully feel a little better.
It started this past week. My grandparents always send me a card with a gift certificate in it. It's not like it's a lot of money or anything, but it's been a tradition for years now, so I look forward to their card. But this year I never got one from them.... I don't think they forgot, but I don't know why else they wouldn't have sent me even just a card....
Every year someone has always bought me my favorite flowers (tulips), and this year my boyfriend decided he wanted to. But when we went to go pick them out last night, they only had a few colors, and most of them were ones I didn't really like. They did have some purple ones, but they were really small =/ There was one bouquet that was bigger, but as soon as I saw it some guy came up and grabbed them ._. so I picked a different, bunch. They're good too, but more like a second choice then a first.
Today, I purposely planned the party with my friends to be later in the day, so that I could spend the middle part of the day with my Dad. Nothing big, just a few people. Anyway, he said we'd go out to lunch, and usually we hang out for a few hours after that. But this morning he wanted to do more like an early dinner. I told him I had friends coming over, so we made it a late lunch instead. But that meant we really didn't do anything after. Which was okay, but a little sad, because that was another tradition that sort of fell through. At least I got lunch with him though, so I was trying to stay cheerful.
Before lunch, my boyfriend and I went to the mall. I had a few things in mind that I might buy myself (because my Mom gave me some birthday money yesterday), but every store I tried was a bust. One is no longer there, two others didn't have what I wanted at all, and in the end we just sort of wandered around until we found this reptile shop. That part was cool, cuz we both love turtles and lizards and stuff, so it was fun, but... I wanted a shopping spree.
And now... well... that party I had planned for tonight is basically cancelled, because none of my friends can show up ._. One got sick, another isn't answering my texts, and the last one forgot that it was tonight and was out of town. She said she'd try and come still, but she'd be late. But now it sounds like she won't make it at all.
At least I have my boyfriend here with me, and he's making yummy lasagna and chocolate cake, and I have my favorite drinks in the fridge too. Also, I did get a lot of "Happy Birthdays" on Facebook and a few cards from other family members... but still... I'm a little sad right now, because none of my plans really went through.
I don't know, maybe I should focus on the parts that went okay, rather than the stuff that fell through. Normally I'm really optimistic and upbeat, so this wouldn't even get to me. But for some reason I feel really sad right now... It's just that nothing really went that well. Like, it was okay, but not great. And everything else went sorta badly... So now I guess I'm gonna spend the rest of the night doing homework =/ Cuz, apart from eating dinner, I really have nothing else to do now. And then I go back to school and work and get lost in day-to-day life. *sigh*
Morrighan-Brann · Mon Apr 04, 2011 @ 03:29am · 0 Comments |
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