I just didn't feel right posting something like this in my main journal >.> it's too ... girly, and I don't mind him looking femme, but this is just a bit much. Still, I really wanna share it! I'm so excited!!!
I was really stressing and not caring for my body worth a damn these last few years. I just straight up didn't care, and I thought it would be girly and dumb to pay any more attention to what I ate or how much I weighed then absolutely necessary. Well, I paid for that attitude. I got up to 170-180lbs O.O and I was so far out of shape it wasn't even funny.
Ever since I came to California though, I've been doing better. I've learned a lot about caring for my body from Daniel, and I feel like I finally, for the first time in my life, have permission to be female. No I didn't run out and jump on the first fad diet I saw, though it was tempting at times (and let's face it, I still randomly think about starting one of those dumb things), I just stopped totally trashing my body with junk food 24/7. I'm learning to eat *bleh* vegetables, gave up bleached flour products, and am on a much more reasonable level of dairy intake.
Lo and behold, my body is rewarding me for all of this. At first the pounds dropped off without effort, but the last few months I got stuck around 165lbs. For some reason I could never get below 162 before bouncing back up, and then slowly working down to 163/2 again and repeat. It was pretty annoying, and I was starting to get discouraged. I knew I really just needed to make a regular habit out of my yoga or step dance or something exercise wise, but so far I still have troubles adding this to a daily routine. It's on again off again, but never truly stable.
This morning though I weighed in at 160lbs on the button! I was so excited I started signing and grinning like an idiot biggrin I've found new hope! And while I still don't have a truly regular exercise routine, I'm a little more motivated to nail one down now.
In conclusion: *jumps up and down like a school girl* I'm only 160! I'm only 160lbs! From 180 to 160!!! *falls over in exhaustion still chanting* only 160, only 160 *between heavy breaths* Next stop 150lbs biggrin
 Morrighan-Brann · Fri Oct 02, 2009 @ 09:11pm · 0 Comments |
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