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Part two has the reason why I am the way I am.... Part one explains everything that needs to be explained in part two...


The reason why I am the way I am... Time for an auto-biography lesson.

The mind's connections and reasonings are influenced the most in childhood. Whenever something big happens to us (enough to change or even attack a person's way of thinking) when we're young, our mind attempts to recover from the situation as best it can.

For me, my mind first got "attacked" in 1999. This was when I first moved to the US from the UK.

Not only did this give me a good ol' case of culture shock, it also threatened the sheep mindset that I had. This was because of something close to bullying that I suffered under, but also rejection, which made me long to go back where I felt safe, normal. Because of these, I had the ingredients for some separation anxiety, inferiority complexes, et cetera. And I suffered these for a short time.

So my mind made up a defense, which was perfectly reasonable at the time, considering no one else really helped me as much as they may have wanted. This was the panther, and it soaked up all the pain and anguish I was feeling beforehand.

But now that I think about it, it didn't push me to become smarter than I could have been normally. With the struggle I was previously fighting gone, my mind was able to devote itself to other things, which pushed me into excellent grades in fourth and fifth grade. I was able to relax, for the most part.