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I DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK ANYMORE. DO I WANT TO BE WITH YOU? YEA... I DO... BUT DO U WANT TO BE WITH ME? IS ALL OF THIS REALLY WORTH IT? I MEAN... U KEEP EVERYTHING TO URSELF... THEN WHEN WE FINALY DO TALK... U SAY SOMETTHINGS I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD HEAR FROM YOU. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK. SOME TIMES U ARE LOVEING ON ME UNCONDITIONALY... AND OTHER TIMES IS AS IF U WOULD BE BETTER OFF NOT KNOWING ABOUT ME @ ALL. IM @ A LOSS FOR WORDS ALOST ALWAYS. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO YOU ANY MORE. I JUST WANT THE GOOD TIMES TO COME BACK. AND I WANT TO KNOW WHAT IS ON UR MIND. AND I WANT TO FIX ALL THE PROBLEMS THAT COME UP. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. OR WHAT TO SAY. AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO FEEL. I THINK THAT I SHOULD JUST LET U BREAK MY HEART... AND LET U DO WHAT U WANT WITH ME... BUT @ THE SAME TIME. IM TOO STRONG..... I DONT KNOW WHAT U WANT FROM ME... SOME TIMES IT FEELS LIKE U JUST WANT ME TO CRY OR SOMETHING. I DONT SHOW IT... BUT IM DELICATE... VERY...... AND I HURT A LOT. EVEN THE LITTLEST THING HURTS. AND ITS HARD FOR ME TO RECOVER FROM PAIN. I DONT WANT TO GET BETTTER KINDA. I WANA LIVE IN WHAT HURTS AND UNDERSTAND Y IT HURTS... AND WHO DID THIS TO ME. WAS IT YOU? OR WAS IT REALLY ME? OR WAS IT SOMETHING ELSE THAT HAPPENED YEARS AGO... AND UR WORDS BROUGHT OUT THAT EMOTION. I KNOW BEING CONFUSED IS PART OF BEING A TEEN... BUT I GUESS I DONT WANT TO BE A TEEN THEN. HELP ME OUT. TELL ME WHAT TO DO.... HELP ME OUT.... DO SOMETHING! I DONT KNOW ANYTHING!!!! UGH! U CONFUSE ME! AND I DONT KNOW HOW U DO THAT. I NEED SOME ONE TO HELP ME. THATS Y I TALK TO PEOPLE LIKE SANDRO.... HE HELPS ME UNDERSTAND EVERYTHING AND MAKE SENCE OF WHAT U TELL ME. AND HELPS ME DEAL WITH EVERYTHING. HES THERE FOR ME WHEN U PUSH ME AWAY... I DONT WANA BE WITH HIM... I WANA BE WITH YOU... BUT IM JUST SAYING. UR GETTING ALL JELIOUS... DONT... HES JUST ANOTHER PERSON THAT IS HELPING ME ALONG THIS JOURNY. AND ITS A ROUGH ONE. IM SO SERIOUS... I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. AND I DONT KNOW HOW IM GOING TO WORK ANYTHING OUT. I THINK THINGS WILL JUST STAY BROKEN FOR A WHILE. AND U CAN DO WITH ME WHAT U WANT. CUZ IM SO OUT OF TOUCH THAT I DONT KNOW WHAT UR DOING UNTIL ITS DONE. I DONT KNOW THAT UR KISSING ME UNTIL ITS TOO LATE. I JUST FEEL HAPPY. THEN I GO "OH! THAT WAS A KISS! Y DID U LET HIM DO THAT?!?!?! HE DIDNT REALLY WANT TO. HE WAS JUST TRYING TO MAKE U FEEL GOOD. DONT LET HIM DO THAT" HELP ME. I KNOW I ASK FOR A LOT. BUT PLEASE. ONE LAST TIME.... WHAT SHOULD I DO?