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SO THIS WEEKEND WAS MY BEST FIRNEDS SWEET 16!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAIGE! SHE HAD A BIG BLOW OUT PARTY. IT WAS A BLAST. THERE WAS A LOT OF DANCING... AND SOME GREAT MEMORIES MADE. THE ONLY THING THAT WASNT SO GREAT ABOUT THE PARTY WAS PAULS JELIOUSY.... HE ASKED PAIGE IF HE COULD COME..... AND WHEN HE DID... NOTHING WAS OK WITH HIM. WE ARE BROKEN UP, AND IT WAS A "RAVE" SO I THOUGHT I WOULD DANCE WITH SOME OF PAIGES FRIENDS. BUT I GUESS THAT WASNT OK. AND I DID DANCE WITH PAUL... A LOT MORE THAN I DANCED WITH OTHER PEOPLE. BUT I GUESS BEING WITH SOME ONE ELSE WASNT OK.... ALRIGHT... TO BE HONEST. U HAD IT. IF U WANTED IT THAT BAD... U SHOULDNT HAVE LEFT ME. IM JUST TRYING TO HAVE FUN AND STUFF.... U ARE THE ONE THAT DUMPED ME. ANYWAY! SO HE HAS BEEN MAD EVER SINCE. AND THERE WAS ONE GUY THAT WAS THERE @ THE PARTY... HIS NAME IS SANDRO. AND EVEN THOUGH WE JUST MET... HE WAS CAREING FOR ME AS IF WE HAD BEEN FRIENDS FOREVER. HE GOT MY NUMBER AND WE HAVE BEEN TEXTING EVER SINCE. HES A REALLY NICE GUY.... AND HE IS JUST COOL. BUT PAUL DOESNT THINK SO. PAUL WENT OFF TODAY. HE TOLD ME ABOUT SOME OF THE THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN BUGGING HIM. AND I HAVE BEEN ASKING... AND HE EITHER AVVOIDS IT BY TALKING ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE I DIDNT ASK ABOUT... OR HE JUST DOESNT TELL ME. SO HE TOLD ME TO STOP ACTING LIKE A PRINCESS... BECUASE IM NOT ONE. IM NOT THE PRINCESS OF GOD... AND A LOT MORE THINGS. HE BASICLY SAID THAT IM NOT PERFECT. HE ALSO SAID THAT HE DOESNT THINK THAT WE SHOULD START GOING OUT AGAIN... AND U KNOW WHAT? THAT REALLY SUCKS. ONE NIGHT OF HAVING FUN AND MAKEING NEW FRIENDS MEANS THAT HE DOESNT WANT TO BE MINE ANYMORE. THAT MEANS HE CANT BE WITH ME.... AND I HATE THAT. I HATE WHERE OUR RELATIONSHIP IS. AND I DO BLAME MYSELF. BECAUSE FROM WHAT IM HEARING... ITS ALL ON ME. ITS BECUASE I WANA DANCE WITH OTHER PEOPLE @ A PARTY... BECUASE I DO THIS AND THAT WRONG.... AND U KNOW WHAT PAUL DELMORE JHONSON-NASH..... I AM A PRINCESS!!!! AND THERE IS NOTHING U CAN DO OR SAY THAT WILL MAKE WHAT I JUST SAID NOT TRUE. LAST TIME U HURT ME I CARVED A CROWN INTO MY LEFT HAND.... IN THE SPACE BETWEEN MY FINGERS AND MY THUMB... U WANA KNOW WHY? SO NO MATTER WHAT U OR ANY ONE ELSE DID I COULD STILL KNOW THAT IM A PRINCESS! FOR THAT VERY REASON! AND YEA... ITS FADED... BUT I CAN CARVE IT AGAIN. U CAN NEVER TAKE THAT FROM ME.... I WILL ALWAYS BE A PRINCESS WETHER U ARE MY PRINCE OR NOT. IM SORRY THINGS WITH US DIDNT WORK OUT. I GUSS I WAS STUPID ENOUGH TO BELIEVE LOVE IS REAL. HAHA. SILLY ME. U KEPT SAYING IT TOO... A FEW WEEKS AGO... THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS TRUE LOVE. AND I KINDA THINK U ARE RIGHT. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS TRUE LOVE BETWEEN TO PEOPLE. BUT I DO THINK THERE IS TRUE LOVE. U WANA KNOW Y? CUZ I TRULY LOVE YOU... NO MATTER WHAT U DO TO ME AND NO MATTER WHAT U HAVE SAID OR DONE TO ME. THERE HAS NEVER BEEN A TIME WHERE I DIDNT WANT U TO HOLD ME. AND LOVE ME. AND I NEVER STOPED LOVING YOU. THATS WHAT TRUE LOVE IS. THATS Y I AM SO STRONG. THATS Y I CAN LOOK PAST ALL THE BAD THINGS THAT HAPPEN.... AND THATS Y I THINK THAT UR WONDERFUL. U CAN TRY AND SHOOT IT DOWN ALL U WANT... "BUT DEEP DOWN THERES A LIGHT THAT NEVER GOES OUT"... DID U CATCH THAT? NEVER! I WANT TO BE WITH YOU.... AND I DONT THINK U UNDERSTAND THAT. MOST OF THE THINGS I DO... ALL OF THE THINGS I ASK YOU ABOUT... I WANT YOU TO SAY NO, CUZ I WANT TO KNOW THAT U WANT TO BE WITH ME. AND THAT U ARE LOOKING OUT FOR ME.... MOST OF THE THINGS I COULDNT DO ANYWAY..... I WANT TO BE WITH YOU. AND IM SORRY THAT I WASNT THE CHICK FOR YOU... AND IM SORRY THAT I CANT DO SOMETHING U LIKE. AND I CANT BE JUST...L UR DREAM GIRL THAT U HAVE TALKED ABOUT. UR ALWAYS SAYING "IM SORRY IM NOT PERFECT" AND I AM TOO.... IM SORRY THAT UR NOT PERFECT FOR ME.... AND IM SORRY THAT I BROUGHT U TO THAT THOUGHT. THOUGH ITS FUN TO DANCE WITH PEOPLE U DONT KNOW... AND TALK TO THEM... THATS NOT FLIRTING. I DONT FLIRT WITH OTHER PEOPLE. I ONLY FLIRT WITH PEOPLE I AM REALLY INTRESTED IN. AND IM NOT SO MUCH OF A SKANK THAT I WOULD DO THAT THE FIRST NIGHT OF MEETING SOME ONE. IM SORRY IF U THINK THAT ME BEING NICE IS FLIRTING. BUT THE ONLY ONE I AM INTRESTED IN IS YOU. AND U CAN BELIEVE WHAT U WANT... BUT THE PRINCESS KNOWS THE TRUTH.