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....um... no more intros. at all. ever. im not in the mood. sheesh.... i feel absolutely horrible. i just recently started ruining one of my friend's life. i-i-.....i dont kno wat to do.... i-..... i think i should show him my true face. i think ive acted a little too hyper and lovey-dovey to him, and he got the wrong image. i will describe my true self in this entry, then i will try to make sure that he is back with the girl he loves.
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i am part African-American, Portuguese, Sicilian, and two other things. (sorry if didnt spell them right) i am 13 years old and will be 14 in December of 2009. i can be hyper when i want to be, and im a very emotional person. i get upset easily, so when i get lectured, for example, i either feel like i wanna cry or i feel like i wanna break something. so this new problem is making me feel like i never should have talked to him. i, um.... i love to laugh. i can almost never keep a straight face. therefore, i like to play pranks and argue about meaningless things. i like to talk about random things. i.... i love romance right now. i mean in the stage of my life when hormones take over. i have been reading things like the twilight series, vampire knight, suck it up, and the chronicles of Vladimir Tod. they have not been helping, mind u, but i like to imagine me having a great boyfriend who liked me for me. i have not had a great friend that was a guy since daycare. his name was Timmy, and he was my best friend back then. but i had to leave cuz it was too expensive. i missed him so much.... anyways... um, im not a morning person, and i dont like anyone talking to me. i get irritated easily. once i slapped a boy at school cuz he kept punching my binder and shutting my locker door when i needed to get my books. he deserved it. i love vampires. i dont care wat anybody says. they have to exist and thats final. people didnt just make it up. um...im very strong on the inside, but at school im nervous, i dont talk a lot, and my self- esteem is going down the toilet. i have a crush, and we used to have art together. he made me laugh everyday. heart but then he had to switch classes, and i only see him at lunch. but we dont talk anymore. everyone he hangs out with is way prettier than me, so i dont think he'll want to be with me over them. ummm....i love anime. check my profile. *sigh* if there is anything i missed i will update this. please, Codo.... im sorry....