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whats so special about 2-14?
tonight is the night before v-day. u know... the day of love. that u make the person u love happy. and u are with them. and just... its a love warm hearts day. but im not too sure about that. mostly cuz i am one mega jeliouse chick. paul had his "best friend" over.... they had this thing..... he apparently got it on with his chick on his bed. and thst not cool. and they have been fighting. and then all the sudden its ok to have them over, oh, and his best friends chick is his x gf. i hate him hanging out with xs when im not there. he doesnt want me to do it, so i dont want him to either. but he does. and that pisses me off. and whenever she comes over, im not invited. that makes me really mad. he is always talking about time that we could be spending together, and then he doesnt do anthing to try and get us together. but he has time to have his x over. whatever. he was telling me that they were just going to be there for a little while, and right after that his best friend said that he was going to be spending the night. that means that his friend will be there for a while in the morning, and the chick will be comming over again. and i am in no way invited, or really thought of. his friend invited me over, but its not his house, so i cant take up that offer. i guess im not doing anything for feb 14th. i asked him to think of something, and then im sure i can do it. but looks like its just going to be another saturday. our relationship has been building strong then falling. its just like janga.... only with out hearts. i know my love is strong, and that how i am able to stay with him. some of my friends think its in my best intrest to leave him, but those same friends think its in my best intrest to go to a rainbow party with them. haha. stupid boys. maybe some day i will have a really special valentines day where i feel like some one that matters. and i feel pretty. i came to understand that i never want to be a boy. what i really want is to be no gender. to be some one that doesnt fall into catigories. ugh. things are getting more annoying. but love is ever lasting. heart ur bz loves u master.
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