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Dear Journal, I'm am so irritated right now. I went to some movies ( long story beware) with some guy friends who one of my best friends Lyn had some problems with. There friendly but that about it. The same guy (well call him D) treats me the same way. I got to the movies after the guys did so one of them bought the ticket and I'd pay back. It was D. who paid for the ticket. Of course out of obligation. He called my friend Lynn a freeloader. I talked to my mom and she was like your assuming than I talked to Lynn and she agreed with me.
I know I'm an obligation and he is being polite. I don't trust D. and He doesn't trust me. Why who knows. Lynn was saying to get them back together as friends. I seriously don't need to hear the story again I heard it enough.
I'd rather tell him off and be like look if I'm an obligation just admit it and that fine. I know it theres no need to keep all to himself. D probably assumes that I'm a free loader like he thinks Lynn is. (Shes not). Me and Lynn are total opposites too. Shows how much he knows about me. I'm not going to explain the story cause like I said I've heard it enough. I'm not a freeloader. I hate people assuming s**t about me. Now Lynn doesn't want me to make her look bad and me to say anything to them that would make her look bad either.

I hate not standing up for myself. I have a large mouth and I can't use it. I can't hold it in anymore. Who cares what D. thinks he doesn't care about money but with everything else he is a selfish kid. Hes like a week older than me but hes somehow really immature. He says he doesn't care about the money . He doesn't but It makes me look bad.
I have to give him the money. If I give it to him in person hell give it back than it becomes an argument. Hopefully he takes it to shut me up.What did I ever do to him? If I'm fake hes really fake. A while back hes like "o I gives gives gifts to my friends all the time". Bull s**t! If it sounds to good to be true it is to good to be true.
I need to defend me. Not worry about Lynn. I know she won't be there to defend herself. I'm tired of worrying about others all the time its time to worry about me.

I am not a freeloader. I did nothing wrong to him and I get treated just as bad as the one who said no to dating you. Whats your problem with me? Why so distant. You don't know me so don't judge me. Thats what I would tell him. He can go off when he wants to and he can manipulate too. Lynn and I are 2 separate people . Lynn doesn't want to face D and D doesn't want to confront her. It would be a screaming match and It wouldn't be nice. Lynn can prove her innocents better than I can. He assumes she is a freeloader b/c of a letter that I never read but no one is suppose to know that she told anyone about it. Maybe he thinks I read it since we are close. I'm a bit of a blabber mouth but I could easily said is she told me you said she was a freeloader. All I knew is what she told me.
I'll talk to my friend and see what she says.

By the way, Have you ever watched Instant Star. Its ok but kind of stupid. Its a love square. You already know who's going to get who (at least I think). Th main girl is Jude theres her sister, the hot producer and her hot best friend. She'll probably get her best friend in the end. Judes sister like the producer dude so those guys will hopefully be together. right now the best friend is in love w/ Jude (she doesn't know) and Jude kissed the producer (hes 22 in the show and she just turned 16). Her sister and the producer look cute together and she should have some happiness. Jude likes the producer dude so does her sister so there should be another cat fight eventually. On top of that Jude lets people run her life and the producer is always around like a annoying big brother, hes kind of cute but manipulative "do it for me" , but kind of charming. Cute producer helps her w/ music but so did her best friend. Hes all over her so its kind of sickening. He needs a life. Hes always in the right place at the right time protecting her. I would tell him to shove off so many times it wouldn't even be funny. Jude was blind she just figured out the producer liked her. Someone needs to tell him off. Hes too clingy it makes me sick. GET A LIFE! do producers set up parties, and hang out w/ our friends while you write songs.

Do you think I wrote enough well thanks
Hachi_ateyou