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Dear Journal,
Whats up how are you (I know you don't reply). A lot has happened since then but I'd rather skip that. I think I need to get more serious with school and balancing it with the fun stuff like watching tv series I don't get around to watching.

I also need to stop this procrastinating. Theres things like gaining arm strength so the the rest of my body tries to make up for it ans I hurt the next day. I think I'm stubborn and I don't want to change or be forced to changed or dragged on a leash and told where to go and what to do and when to do it. I want to do what i want when I want but I never get around to do what i want so I say screw the stuff like homework I should be doing and let me sit in front of Gaia on a petition that I know is getting me somewhere.

Last semester I had 14 credits (full time is 12). I balanced my schedule so that i day was fun and I took out thirty minutes or an hour just to watch anime or write in my Journal. I did better than I did the semester before. With my homework I like writing stuff about stuff I like and like pointing out my opinion. But then I get a crappy grade then should I be taking it more serous whats the point?
I saw my test grade on my Sociology quiz and it dropped. I studied more than before and it dropped. In Sociology they say if you think your teacher thinks your going to fail then you will. Its proven I forget by whom though. Now I have to write a paper on Sociology concepts easy enough add your opinion with proof from the article and walla you have a three page paper. Then there is a Communication paper I have to write in memory of someone or something. My mom has 3-70page notebooks on him. Nor do I remember much about him. He did a lot of the same things over and over.
This laddy at work they jokingly call Granny (the one laddy who is like 40 something called her over the intercom once I thought it was offensive I guess not. "Granny" didn't say it was offensive. I guess its a joke and she doesn't care. I need to take things like her. Minus the should coulda, woulda. To not think of it as should a could a woulda. I guess live in the now. Say so what that happens and move on. If I prepare myself to fail I will.
When I promise myself to do something I get mad when I break that promise. I promised myself that I would be less greedy and not be like yah more stuff. I feel like its more stuff to organize then you need a bigger house bigger storage bins, then a storage unit, then another house to put it in. Sure stuffs nice it makes you happy but why take more than you can handle or feel theneed to deal with. The only time I ever buy something on Gaia is when I am bord with my avi. Its like once a week I guess. But I hate myself for being greedy like everyone else . All I need is a few things here and there not a house full. I feel like I'm becoming like everyone else.