Update is not too far away from the last one ((less than a month)). And things have already changed so much in the last month.
First of all, I'm now dating the boy that I took to prom. That happened during the end of June. It was sudden and he asked me if we were going out and I told him if he wanted us to be then we were. I hate to say this, because it makes me sound like a horrible person, but I it how I feel... I think that I only agreed to go out with him to distract me from my other problems.
Well, when my friend, whom I learned liked me, found out he sent himself off into a depressing cycle, and making my other guy friend kind of angry with me, because, AGAIN, he felt that I didn't give him a chance. But I don't want to give him a chance.
And then there is still that whole thing with Saiyajin. I mean... I still love him. And I don't think that I can easily get over him. Afterall I was with him for a while. Things like that aren't easy to get over. But I don't want to tell him. I couldn't. He's been moving on with his life and if I tell him then it will make everything harder since we're going off to college soon and we'll never see each other anyways. :sigh: I... just wish things could have ended up differently between us. And now... I felt horrible because I've been playing with my new boyfriend's emotions.
Caused I figured out that... I don't like him. But... I don't have the heart to tell him that I don't like him, because. He's such a sweet guy. And he deserves someone who can like him back. Instead of him being in a one-sided relationship.
But aside from me, there the whole issue with my friend that had moved in with me. Well, as fate would have it. She didn't go down to live with her boyfriend. Why? I kind of had a part in helping my mother and my friend disable my car. So when we went to leave for the airport, we weren't able to get there. And I wasn't able to take her the rest of the day and her boyfriend freaked out on my mom when she revealed to us what she had done. He even called her a b***h, which is going to far.
But after less than twenty-four hours the jerk is breaking up with her because he pulled the "you didn't even try to be with me and went through hell to try and get you here" card. So he broke her heart and I hated him for it. But then I was glad that she wasn't able to get down there. He would have ******** with her heart and then left her stranded down there.
And ((this is the part I'm not sure if I approve of just yet)) a week after he did this to her, she's already with another guy. She had supposedly had a crush on him ((and vice versa for him)) for about a year, but they never had any REAL contact until about a month and a half ago. Worse part in my eyes is she's already told him that she loves him. Not like LOVE! I really don't approve of relationship that start so soon after other ones and I especially don't like relationship were people are already telling the other person that they love them when they haven't even been dating for a WEEK! Yeah.
:sigh: I hate relationships. I really do. I just wish we didn't have hearts at all. Things would be so much easier for everyone.
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Kodoku na Oujo no Nikki (The Diary of a Lonely Princess)
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