Lating I've been having trouble sleeping at night. I usually don't end up falling asleep until the early hours of the morning. Like the time on should be getting up for school is when I fall asleep.
But once I do fall asleep I have no trouble staying that way. :sigh: My case on insomnia is difficult.
I'm also kind of worried about this weekend. I supposed to go visit my grandfather this weekend, and this might very well be the last time I see him before he dies. I was told from my father that there is just too much wrong with him and that he only has one to six months left.
I do care for my grandfather, but I really don't want to see him. I mean, every time I saw him a child he was always a big and tough as nails kind of man. Now they saw that he's very thin and weak. Seeing him like this, practically broken, is gonna be hard.
But I don't want to start crying in front of my sisters and father. They need someone there to be strong. Usually that's my job. I just hope that seeing my father cry won't push me over the edge.
:sigh: But it's life. We all have to die. We just feel bad about leaving others behind for a while.
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Kodoku na Oujo no Nikki (The Diary of a Lonely Princess)
This little, worn diary, holds my deepest thoughts and fears.
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