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Entry Eighty-Nine - That horrible feeling |
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Welp, looks like I didn't update this like I said I would. Again. You know what? Every other day. Alright, it's a plan...Someone comment already, I like opinions.
The subject of this journal is people. People have been on my mind lately, and this isn't the part where I say who is and who isn't. I'll just say it throughout my entire entry. I know that I've mentioned my graduation from high school in previous 'installments'. As a whole, high school will also be mentioned here.
Friend-wise, I have a lot of friends. Good ones, close ones, distant ones, best ones. However since I've graduated, and most of said friends have graduated too, we've all become distant from each other. We live in different places and our own agendas are now taking precedence with the absence of school and seeing each other almost daily. I have a few friends that live in my area, though, so it's some comfort that they're near me. The bad part comes when we still don't talk that often, even over the internet where the distance problem has been solved.
Why is it that they don't really talk to me as much?
I like talking to and seeing my friends. I love hearing about them, their interests and more. I especially love how we connect to each other. Perhaps, as I'm pretty sure the fault is on both sides here, we should make more of an effort to connect. I fear I'm losing something with the quiet that I hear from my buddies. But the thing is, is that I think this is being allowed in some way.
Love-wise, I've only really loved one person in my entire life. In elementary school I had a few crushes. As soon as I lost interest in my latest crush there came along one person that I truly, really fell for. And I've fallen pretty hard for him. There was another that I had begun to like that way, but we've since become friends which is also wonderful. Unlike my other friends, we talk at least a few days of the week.
Am I only talked to as a friend, or loved, because I'm conveniently there? I feel like as soon as I don't see someone constantly, or talk to them constantly, then the friendship is immediately on the decline.
I hate this feeling. I hate love. You can't really get rid of it but you can't live without it either.
--A wishful Ty
 Ty Gwynnia · Tue Aug 21, 2012 @ 06:54pm · 0 Comments |
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