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I think I know why no matter what I'm going to still feel the same about you. It's because I love you. I've always loved you. It's because you mean more to me than anyone else in the world. You are the most Amazing person I have ever known and you will go on to do incredible things that I wouldn't want to miss. Even though you broke my heart, I love you still. It's because I know we shared something that was so special and you are far too great a person to ever let out of my life. It hurts like hell to know you may never love me back in the same way that I love you, but at the same time, I know that right now, you need me as a friend. It hurts like hell to walk with you, to share a laugh with you, to feel the way I do about you. But I know it's the right thing to do, I couldn't live with myself if I left you here. I know you might love somebody else, and I know that you might love that somebody else more than me. I want you to give him everything that you couldn't give me because I know that he can make you happier than I can. I love you, and I'm going to be here for you no matter what pain may come, because at the end of the day when I go to sleep I want to be happy with myself knowing that I did everything in my power to make you happy, even if it's not talking to you and telling you everything you deserve to hear. Even if it's by shutting everything that I feel about you so that you don't worry about how I feel. It's because I want to be here for you, and it's where I belong..It's because I want you to be happy. Kuv hlub koj, and all the pain that comes with it wouldn't matter in the slightest. Because in the end......I know..That you're worth it.


It's a shame that I still feel this way for you when really, they should all be gone by now. But they just won't go away on their own. And it get's me frustrated for sure. Why do these feelings have to be so complicated and can't just "poof"? D'awww. Come on now. -__________-