It's being driven to do so many things without being organized about it, both physically and mentally.
The concept of being mentally organized shouldn't be new to me, I just haven't been practicing it that much.
Actually, I lie. People talk about being organized all the time as if it were some type of state of mind, something you were born into doing and never really stop, or they make it look like it's an unreachable star.
Perhaps these fools need to get slapped once or twice across the face to restore their brain-to-mouth connection. Especially the ones that always become extremely organized for a short time, and they wear down because the stress they put on themselves is too much for them to bear.
Like me, for example. I've been managing to barely keep up with having two "jobs" to do between the hours of 0730 to 1630 every weekday. One is insanely easy and requires little effort, knowledge, or organizational skills due to the workload, and the other is enough to bow under pressure to since I'm the only one doing it.
And for weeks, no, months, I've been dreaming up ways that I can cope with it by myself.
I don't trust other people to do it as much because they're all just as busy as I am.
It's not good to put already busy people to work doing something else. That level of ad hoc is not healthy for anyone.
But it's not like I would have a choice. So, I started looking for an alternative.
The alternative came to me in the form of a book called "Getting Things Done: The Art of Stress-Free Productivity" by David Allen.
I saw it listed on Amazon while I was buying my NES, Light Gun, and Super Mario Bros./Duck Hunt (which by the way I would enjoy even more if I had a CRT TV of my own to use the light gun with), and I decided to read a review. It said something about doing less-than-two minute jobs as soon as you get them. I was marveled at this obvious but brilliant idea. So I bought the book.
I had some issues with getting it from the post office, so I just got it today.
I think it's marvelous so far, but I need to take my time reading it.
That doesn't mean I haven't learned anything new from it.
Here are a few things I've learned:
People's work habits have changed greatly in the past century. Once they were mostly repetitious little jobs and progress was both easily seen and managed.
Now people have more "knowledgable" jobs, where they must keep track of all these "big pictures", all these "little details".
Our minds can absorb a great deal of information
Unless we find a way to out-process the "to-do" box effectively, it can form figurative clumps in our heads which increase worry, stress, and anxiety.
This anxiety can keep us from doing things that we need to do for our job and want to do in our personal lives.
In order to get rid of this "cancer" effectively and efficiently, one must learn to mentally organize oneself and find some way to purge all the information that they are taking in.
Patience and dedication are the keys to victory in this fight against this thought cancer.
It just seems like all I've been doing recently is worrying and worrying about what I haven't done, which then keeps me from enjoying myself as much, which THEN keeps me from... In other words, it makes me start worrying, and worrying, and worrying. All this worry hinders me in more ways than one.
But what is the cause of this worry? Quite simply, it's improper organization skills. I know that I spend a lot more energy looking for things and then hurrying to get them finished at my level and then on to looking for the next thing.. This cycle induces stress, that much is fact.
I've known this for a while. I've tried to find solutions to this dilemma.
I don't know where this book will take me.
But to be honest, I don't know where to go from here. I don't know if these feelings I've been having are all just an illusion due to an immature mind set against mature circumstances. Or something similar.
So my plan now is to learn how to mentally and physically organize and use thispurging pad often.
It's all I have to hold on to. And maybe I'll be more like myself when I'm done learning it all.
