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save me from myself, i want to wake up from all of this, this is nuts man ... i alway thought i could handle something like this and let it go, but who the ******** can let go 2 yrs of a black out....i dont remember much , i just remember workin and hanging out wit my dad at the workplace and talkin to my gf and close friends, my gf was in school so was i my bro was about to graduate the following year and got new car , well not new but new to the family lmao i dont remember aspiring for anything, was i really that much of a loser? did i have any goals? i remember my sister graduating, lmao i remember she called me while i was going home and i didnt really dress for the occasion neither did my girl but i dragged her along, i dont remember being invited but i was in the last min so i just bought a quick gift and made sure i was on time , .... i remember lookin at the car i have now and thinkin about buyin it but i guess i did and fixed it up, it was pretty ******** up lmao i found some pics, my family went to cali and honduras wit out me....why didnt i go with them? i wish i would have maybe i would have something else to remember i seriously lost 2 yrs of my life that is unexplained it just feels like uncharted territory .... wat the ******** man, can some one explain this to me, i remember while in the coma just having a long a** dream it was kinda blurry so i dont remember all of it but from wat i remember it is just me and my friends together at a bbq, my bro sis n gf, all together with their bf and gf and we were just hanging out it was nice, each of them were talkin to me tellin me they loved me, that i was an idiot for doin wat i did, like i feel like they knew wat happend to me, and they were tryin to reach me, i mean leo did tell me he read to me a groupe of messages and kept readin them every day to me even if it was repetitive, i kno that it prolly sucked for him but im glad he did it , i heard their voices tho i didnt hear his , i felt kisses on my forehead like they were real, as far as i kno leo didnt kiss me lmao i hope he didnt that would be kinda gay but respectable, he still talks to me now but rarely has time, i owe him and ratface my life, they said dont worry bout it they got my back no matter wat, they kinda owed me anyway but in family we never keep count, i totalled his car, im soo sory cuz ill try to compensate u some time, i promise, it was a bmw too lmao damn thats gonna be hard to replace but anyway, ......can somebody help me please, im beggin u.....say something to me im seriously tired of hearin my dr's voice already he starting to sound like the guy ben stein with that monotone low apathetic voice to me i dont think he cares about me anymore honestly, im just another schmuck to him, i need some one else to tell me they love me , my family doesnt really kno wat happend, so i feel like its a lie when they tell me they love me , i mean i kno its real but its for a false cause, ......i need to talk to my friends again, hopefully my DR. will let me do so soon, im dying to hear my bro's and sis' voice again.....
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