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My depression has been really kicking my butt lately i'm afraid.

So i've finally decided to do what I've often thought I should, but have yet to try. I'm going to take a quarter off. Well okay, in a way I'm taking two quarters off, because this one is basically shot to hell by now, but officially i'm taking spring quarter off. So I won't be in school again until this next September.

It feels weird to think that I'd be out of school for so long. Only once before have I ever been out of school so long (since starting in kindergarten), and that was when my family was moving and in a huge, long, drawn out transitional period. That time I was out of school for one year. The last half of sixth grade and the first have of seventh.

At the same time, I know it's really one of the only smart options I have left. If I push myself now, as I have done in the past, I'm going to break. I've learned this lesson the hard way so many times before, and I have no intention of learning it again, because, frankly, at this point I can't afford to screw up.