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I HAVE BECOME KINDA A... TOY FOR MY HUSBAND.... WHATEVER HE WANTS HE GETS... AND HE WANTS A LOT. HE HAS A LOT OF EMOTIONS IN HIM... AND HE NEEDS TO LET THEM OUT. UNFORTUNATLY FOR ME... HE LETS OUT HIS EMOTIONS ON MY BODY.... SEXUAL.... RAGE.... ANYTHING..... IM KINDA HIS LITTLE HUMAN PUPPET. BUT I THINK ITS OK. HE ISNT THE 1ST GUY THAT HAS DONE STUFF LIEK THIS TO ME... AND I DOUBT HE WILL BE THE LAST. THOUGH I HOPE HE IS MY LAST LOVE... I DONT THINK SOME OTHER GUYS WILL HESITATE TO GET A FEW HITS IN.. BEATING ME WILL BECOME AMERICAS NEW PASS TIME. HAHA. IM KINDA SCARED OF HAVEING A BABY.... HE ISNT INTO PROTECTED SEX... AND EVEN WHEN I TOLD HIM THAT THAT WAS THE ONLY KINDA SEX I WOULD HAVE WITH HIM... HE DIDNT LISTEN.... IM TOO YOUNG FOR A CHILD... AND WE HAVE GONE THROUGH THIS KINDA STUFF BEOFRE... AND I DONT THINK HE UNDERSTANDS HOW EASY IT IS TO HAVE SOMETHING LIKE THIS HAPPEN. BUT THATS OK. ITS STILL ALL FOR HIM. ALL THIS PAIN... FOR ALL HIS PLEASURE. BUT THEN THERE ARE TIMES WHEN HE REALYZES WHAT HE HAS DONE... AND HE WANTS TO KILL HIMSELF.... HE ISNT PLEASED.... AND THAT KILLS ME. LOOKING OIUT FOR HIS LIFE IS PROBABLY THE HARDEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE... AND I DONT DO IT WELL.... THE PROOF IS ON HIS ARM. THOUGH I AM HIS SEX TOY.... AND TOYS ARENT SUPPOSED TO FEEL... OR ANYTHING. THIS TOY FEELS PAIN.