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i'm really worried about that suicidal friend of mine. i guess since i keep referencing her, she really needs a name. hmm i don't want to give her away though, because i don't know if she'd like ppl knowing. how about we call her K, that's a cool letter and one i think i can remember her by, besides it sounds like a name when you say it ^^

anyway, so k tried to kill herself last night ... she says she didn't even really want to die, it just sort of ran away with her. she's been talking about how lost she feels lately, and i think it has to do with the fact that another friend of her's is also depressed and feeling suicidal atm.

i wish there were more i could do for her, but what? it's not like we even live in the same state, and i'm no pro with this depression stuff.

i've been doing a bunch of research, trying to find a way to help her out, but so far i've pretty much done, or am doing, everything they've suggested.

the biggest problem is that her parents aren't helping at all. they don't know anymore that she's still having problems, because they gave her so much trouble about it (and not the constructive type either) that she just started lying to them and pretending she was doing better. i wish they were more understanding and better equipped to handle this situation.

but by now K's lost all faith in them. and her dad is supper protective and nosy so she doesn't feel safe enough to even look this stuff up on her own. she can't trust the computer's history, because he digs through it all the time.

so what i'm doing now is making her my own info sheet by compiling (copy pasting) the stuff i've found so far. it's taking awhile though, because, not only is there a TON of info to sift through, but there's always the fact that my computer has been acting up lately and is going really slow right now.

i don't know what it's problem is.

anyway, i guess i'm already feeling a little better about this. mostly i just wanted a little time to digest everything.

on the plus side, casey is coming home early. i've been feeling a little lonely lately i guess, because i've started really hating to say goodbye to her in the mornings.

so yeah, she had a s**t day, but i won't go into that. let's just say that it'll be nice for both of us that she's coming home early.