I think that all of the broken bones and strained tendons in my body have healed up, because I didn't have any trouble walking today. This means that I'll be able to start showing my face in the dojo again, which really needs to have been done for a long time. My muscles have atrophied, and the computer really isn't my natural habitat at all... I long for activity and the thrill of perfecting my body.
Lately, I've gone through a pretty bad phase in my life that shouldn't happened to a person like myself. I've never been the one to give up before I set foot on the ring, and I never will be. The past few days I almost did such a thing, and it's not something I'll ever forgive myself for, no matter how delusional and tortured I was at the time. I've been through worse, the fact that I live now when so many of the other don't means that I'm not a wuss. I won't let my friends down like that again--ever.
Sadly, that moment of clarity just doesn't make things better right off the bat, but I'm working hard to find out how to be myself again. I think it's important to know that if I'm going to deal with issues in my way from now on.
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Reluctant Protagonists
We walk on two legs, not on four. To walk on four legs breaks the law. What happens when we break the law? What happens when the rules aren't fair? We all know where we go from there; back to the house of pain...
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