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yay! three day weekend! and best of all my sig other has the day off too (she rarely has a day off, because she goes to school mon-thur and works fri-sun). i think i may try to hit the cemetery in spokane, because i do have a couple relatives there, but sadly i won't be able to keep the family tradition of getting together. it's just too hard to get up there and too long on the grey hound. plus, i'm already going to a wedding on the 31st (my half sister) and don't really want to spend money on a bus ticket and time on the ride twice in the same month.

last night turned out pretty good over all. the day itself was rather shitty and wednesday really sucked, because i wanted to see a councilor (walk-in) but my usual one was handling walk-ins that day and i'm trying to avoid her right now (see previous entry).

i guess i could go now, but i've actually been feeling better.

on wednesday my horoscope said that i might think i know what i want, but that may not actually be good for me. so i forced myself to go to my club meeting and be social, and actually it was kind of nice. i did get stuck explaining the whole family death thing to a couple of people, but overall it was alright.

yesterday i skipped my clubs though, but not to just hang out, i needed to run some errands and do a few chores. then i had a friend over for a study session and dinner, so i think it balanced out. there was a point at which i felt pretty anti-social and didn't want him to come over, but i sucked it up and it turned out to be a really good night.

i'm feeling better about my suicidal friend today too. i've managed to get her talking about elements in her life that bother her, rather then just her commitment to suicide, which is nice (probably for both of us). i feel like i can handle this kind of situation a lot better. i'm actually qualified to talk about day-to-day life while dealing with depression.

i think today i'm just going to take it easy, and maybe i'll hit the stores for some flowers and a wedding present tomorrow, then i could go to the cemetery on sunday and monday my sig and i can hang out smile

i'm glad to see it's going to be raining straight through tell next week at least. i LOVE the rain, and it always makes me feel better when i've been depressed or stressed out. like i'm being cleansed and all the bad is being washed away. i think that's why i like showers too. also, i'm no good at crying, even when i'm alone i don't let myself, and when it rains i feel like i'm crying through the sky's tears. then i can get a similar emotional release without actually dropping a tear.

all in all, this is shaping up to be a good weekend.