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I feel like a hell stupid teenager. ö_Ö We were in a park, having a goodbye party for one of our best friends, and there were some people from the other school that I didn't really know. Well... I had met one of them before but I never talk to people. I'm always everywhere but I never talk with anybody and that's why I remember people who don't remember me. Wonderful. Ok, stupid teenagers are the ones who go to the park, giggle loudly and drink alcohol leaving a terrible mess behind. >_> That's what we kind of did and I wanted to go home all the time, until someone smarter said that we should go away from those who brought the alcohol (the people I didn't know brought it...). So we went to sit into the ground, behind a tree, next to a river, and we almost pushed each other there. My friend lost something new and cool, and I found a float, which my friend thought was a hype needle, and my other friend said it was a dart. ö_Ö I washed my hands after that whatsoever... And I'm never gonna go to a party like that again. It was nice... Or it could have been nice without all the people who brought alcohol, all the fighting, all that mess we made and all those hyperfloatdarts... My friends didn't like it either and that's why I like hanging out with muslims, I can be sure they don't drink alcohol. (; Of course I don't choose my friends because of their religion! I actually just meant that I'm quite lucky. ö_Ö
As I came home I bought candy and sat in my room drawing something nice and then I came downstairs. ^^ Interesting, eh?
There is blood on my wall, because I killed a mosquito with my big fishing road and it's so high that I cannot wash it away. I'm about to throw up every time I look at it. It's so discusting. It's probably my own blood but still. As I killed that frakin' midge I decided not to go to the army. : p I was so upset about that little bloody spot on my wall.

Malice Mizer and Moi dix Mois heart heart No words to describe how much i luff Mana. Ö_Ö And now I feel like an idiot once again. I'm thinking about them all the time, just like my friend loves Gerard Way. ^^
She is so funny. I asked her what would her country be like if she was a dictator and she said she would put Gerard Way pictures everywhere. :'D Awww... She is so sweet. All my friends are. Isn't that pretty normal? I'm so sad that so many of them are leaving next year. Three of my best friends and some good teachers. D: I wanna tear into pieces and hide one piece into each of their bags when they go and leave one piece of me in this school. One of them I would send to Finland.

I really wonder how people can live in countries where there is a death penalty. It makes me so sad when I think about it. I'm never gonna move away from the EU, because it's not possible inside these borders, and I think that's actually the only good thing the EU has done. I would make one exception, though, I wanna live in Japan... For something like a year. (I'd go to see Moi dix Mois and buy all those cool clothes they sell. : p) But no more than a year. Then I would move to some eastern european country. Near Finland.^^ Somewhere like Poland. I don't want to go back to Finland anymore. It's too small and too far away from everywhere. Holland opened my eyes. One of my friends says that Holland killed her innocence, but I think it was more of a useful thing. I saw the world from a new angle. I knew that Finland wasn't the only country in the world, but I didn't really understand what it meant in practical. Seriously the world is much bigger than I had ever thought. Don't think I'm dumb. You only realize that when you move abroad, and that's why I recommend it to everybody.

Tomorrow it's my party. :3 I'm gonna be the only one wearing a dress. sad But I don't care. I have to wear one because I'm organizing it. It would be stupid to say that it's an 18th century party if I didn't even bother to wear a dress myself. :'D
But I gotta go now. I have to bake cakes for the party. ^^
Bye.