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Yup, normally I don't write like this but today I felt like it. :3
You know, how you sometimes get the feeling the you don't wanna be in the world and live your life... It comes when you hurt somebody as a mistake or fail a test. It feels like the you are really worthless and cause only trouble. Too many people get this feeling too often... But even though it keeps bothering me, I won't kill myself or anything (unless I get a C for history, but that ain't happen. :3 ), I'm just not afraid of death anymore. I used to be, but I do believe I'm goign to heaven. In my religion anyone who wants to go to heaven, does. I don't think there is a hell. What do you need it for? The God loves everybody equally ignoring what they have done, and if they want to be with him, and believe he will forgive them everything. If you are an atheist, I don't think you can go to heaven, you just fade away, and that's your realty. I mean... If you believe in God you have nothing to lose. You die and you go to heaven if there is one, and if there isn't, you won't obviously care because you are dead.
Don't come and tell me that the Bible talks about hell. I don't believe in the bible either. It's not the main thing in Christianity, it's a storybook, and not a lawbook. You don't have to follow it to be a good person. You can do nothing to be a good person. Everyone is equal in the end. The sins are in our blood and we can't help it. Everyone does them. Imagine three glasses of cola-those are people, eh. And the cola means the sins they have done. They have different amounts of cola in them. One has only a very little bit, one is half filled and one is full. I'm another person looking at them from the side, and I see how much sins they have done... It's the human view, but if you were God, and looked at them from the top, they would all be the same. In my religion Hitler could go to heaven if he prayed for it, but unfortunately he didn't believe in God. When I was small and someone told me the God came to live among people as Jesus, I thought Hitler was the devil, trying to kill all jews as Jesus was one himself as well. But I don't think so anymore. Hitler was a human. He was a charismatic human.
I'm not trying to make you turn into Christianity. I respect all religions and all thoughts of people. You think what you like, in the end all religions are probably the same. They just have some differences but the base idea is the same. All of them have their good and bad things. I think christianity is somehow not complete. In Islam I don't like the idea of having good and evil and how you live your life affects on where you go after you die. Like the God chose his favourite people... The strong ones and beautiful ones, who never did anything wrong or went angry and threatened to kill everyody in the world. Only those who are always happy and always helpful and love all other people more than theirslves... That's impossible. No, I know I was overdoing it. It's not like that, but it has ideas like that more than Christianity does. I like religions that are monoteist, like Christianity and Islam are. We believe in the same God (these are just two exapmle religions I'm using, yes, I'm aware there are many more). Our God just has three different personalities, The Father, the son, and The Holy Spirit. Nowadays they call that skitchfrenia, though. Ö.ö
Well... I finished my chemistry test whatsoever, and tomorrow it's my dutch test. Then, finally the exams are over. ^^