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Sadness is all i can feel right now. i don't know what to do anymore with my life. i don't even have the strength to go through the day. i just want to find a dark lonely place and die for what i just had to do, and it sucks because i don't know if she'll ever talk to me again. i've tried and tried to figure it out, why i feel this way, why i hate myself even more that i used to, but the only thing that comes to mind is that i've hurt her too much, far more than time, or words can heal. perhaps my death is the only remedy, the only thing to make her happy. i don't know...