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i am actually happy again for the first time in a while. i mean, i'm still stuck, but just talking to them and hearing them speak their minds, it makes me glad that i'm here, but at th same time, it still pains me, because it's still confusing. but confusion is always the greatest gift to me, and i now know what it's like to love and be loved. my heart is still torn in two, because i have given my heart two the two who means everything to me, but i feel like i HAVE TO make room for one more, but that is where i grow even more confused. why is it that i am stuck like this? is it simply because i'm nice to the people i talk to? because i don't want to forever be cold, and i guess that is what appeals to them, but i may be wrong. first lucky_elf, then Sakura800, and now Sakura Haruno 9. in a way it feels good to be loved by so many people, but i mean, i'm getting kinda claustrophobic in a sense. i can only love one, but what the hell!