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Whoever decides to try and talk to me next.
Today's been... ugh. There is no word ugly, perverse, rude, or wrong enough to be used for today's lable. I'm mostly happy to be home. In once peice. Maybe? We'll see when I care again. I'm pissed.
It rained today. Anna agreed to come along with me to go price computers. My mom ended up going that way as well... she wanted her internet service that you get by buying a computer. So I felt hounded, seriously. But whatever, we found one that was said to be perfect and I finally agreed. He wanted to sell me a whole package, I did not want a whole package, but to get th einternet we needed to buy the package so guess what I ended up doing? Getting a whole bunch of s**t I don't want... Windows Media Center with a ******** Recovery CD. WEWT! If I format, I'm screwed to forever get the same s**t I don't want on there. Oh and it gets better. I want to take it home, but he won't let me. Says they have to install everything. "I can do that," I told him. He argued. I finally gave in and agreed to pick it up at 8:30pm that night.
I don't drive well a night. The lights destract me. I literally cannot see ANYTHING but the lights. It makes driving hard when you can't see the road to follow... Ketobie's driven with me enough to notice I have trouble concentrating when it gets dark. I agree to the time even knowing this.
Ketobie's been working hard, and we don't hang out like we use to. I can never get onto WoW, and I guess he has obligations on there. We talk, but I ******** up conversations so that there's nothing to say in return. Well he worked today, and I finally admitted that I was lonely, sorta. I said that everyone is gone somewhere. Tai and Chaofly are at a party and he's gunna hang out with his friend. What I got in return for that was tomorrow to hang out with him. Not sure if I have the whole day, but I know I'd get alot of it and so I was happy. He left with me feeling better. We had some great plans...
I go to pick up my computer. I saw the road maybe once or twice... It was really hard. I just stuck to what I knew. Not that this would take long anyway. 30min drive. I got there fine, and went into a very empty futureshop. Customer service directed me to the computer desk and so I waited. And waited. And waited... I didn't know what to do cause the guy was in the back room. I walked back over and the girl told me to go ahead and poke my head in. So I did. I asked about my computer.
Flustered. "I'm sorry, it's not ready..." "So I have to come back... tomorrow?" "I'm afraid... We got very backed up here." He looked upset and worried so I told him that it's no problem and walked out. I started to cry on my way down the esclator. No one saw me, thank god. I was just upset because I knew. Most people may think, Oh, just another day to wait. Me, well, I knew. I'd be spending ALL of tomorrow setting the god damn thing up. When Ic ould have done that tonight. It was all ready. All my s**t was on my bed waiting to b eput away after I got the thing in there.
I cried the entire drive. Threw a nice little tantrum WHILE I was driving. Probably not safe. It was better crying than driving into someone, which I was tempted to do on too many occasions. I figured the accident would provide something more physically paining for me to concentrate on. I bit my lip and kept driving. I took a hill way too fast, but I got through it. It'd be very stupid if I endangered myself. Ketobie and Tai wouldn't be very happy with me... at all. And I knew better. Just relax and get home.
Yeah, I got "aww"s of sympathy from my parents. Like I ******** need that. I'm going to have to go in tomorrow and set the ******** thing up. IF it's ready THEN. Oh help them lordy if it's not...
I think I'm going to bed. It's best to sleep this off I think. Maybe, if I'm lucky, I'll start thinking to the upsides... Possibly that if I get up early and get there early, I might have enough time to set it up before Ketobie and I would have started our day together anyway.
 Silent Flame · Sun Sep 10, 2006 @ 05:44am · 1 Comments |
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