Aug 22, 2018
So, the month is coming to an end and with it I'm hoping to have a conclusion to the soap opera that has taken over my life. One way or another, this upcoming week, I should know what's going on. Now, while I'm excited for that, I want to document right now that I haven't felt this good in a long time. I know that this is a slippery slope and I'm one missed run or one really bad day away from slipping back into old habits but this feeling - and the fact that I'm not doing this alone - is good encouragement to keep it up. I want to feel more like my old self again. I want to feel more like the girl who was creative and up to her elbows in original characters and writing stories for each of them, who was in love with love, who wanted to experience new things, who dreamed of a life with someone who inspired her, loved her, and who shared her ambitions. but she's been gone for a long time. Honestly, I don't think there's a way to bring her back and my goal shouldn't be to revert to who I was in high school but maybe I could have a more mature version of her back and make up a small part of the new me. I think I'd like that.
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