Aug 18, 2018
So this past week has been a bit of a roller coaster. I've been so stressed over this situation (by which I mean, there hasn't been a decrease since I told him the night of the 8th) that my body is actually starting to physically suffer for it. So while I've been sleeping and working and overall managing, I'm exhausted in just about every sense of the word.
That being said though, Mike messaged me the other day. I truly wasn't expecting him to get a hold of me while on vacation for a multitude of reasons, the first and most important being he asked for time to think things through and he's going to be on vacation for nearly 3 weeks by the end of it. But he messaged me very early yesterday morning (one could almost say Thursday night considering it was something like 1am) and the first things he said to me were "My apologies for taking a while to get back to you" and "I just wanted to let you know that I've been thinking about this and about you. I do really like you." I don't even care how much stress I've dealt with over the course this past week, one of my best friends and man that I have feelings for took the time out of his vacation to message me and tell me that he was thinking about me. That means more to me than I can properly put into words.
He asked what I thought about him wanting to talk to my ex (who is a good friend of his) to ensure that he knows the extent of my feelings for him. Mike also wants to make sure that there's no hard feelings and that he won't feel betrayed if Mike and I work out in the future. I love that he's so dedicated to his friends that he's willing to put aside what he wants to talk to them first but at the same time, I don't know how my ex is going to respond. I told Mike of course, go ahead, if you need to talk to him first then you absolutely should and he said he'd reach out either within the next few days or when he gets home but I'm still nervous. My ex - naturally - isn't exactly thrilled about us breaking up and even less so about the fact that I want to pursue a relationship with his friend but he's trying to be understanding. This is what makes me nervous though. My ex told me that if Mike and I got together he would more than likely bow out for an indefinite amount of time and I know Mike does not want that because he doesn't want to hurt anyone.
Should I give my ex a heads up that Mike will be reaching out soon? I feel like maybe I should, I did tell tell him that I'd let him know what Mike decided so he could make the best decision for him. Maybe I should.
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