It's so difficult to stay motivated to do anything lately. It's even more difficult to find inspiration. Looking back on the past tends to make me feel drained. Maybe the problem is that I'm putting too much pressure on myself to be creative. The times when I decide not to worry about making progress in my projects is when I suddenly get this burst of inspiration and start putting pieces together to make ideas work. If I try to keep this going, I get burned out on it all very quickly. Would it be wrong of me to keep coming back to old projects and making new stories and characters just to keep myself inspired?
A while back, I added a TV animation to my game. All I did was edit old animations from the "Elemental Experimental" phase of my life and put them onto two TVs that can be found in Nathaniel's room and Louis' room. Even further back, I added a machine in the arcade that shows some gameplay from the old "Catalyst" RPG based on Elemental Experimental. So on Atlantiana island, both failed projects are a reality. Sure, not many people will get the references but the fact that they are there makes me smile. Maybe I'll add other references eventually. Maybe I'll add a newspaper article that mentions the Zodiac Killer New Generation story being solved by Sherly Holmes, or a kid's fairy tale book about a dragon prince that must kill the one he loves to lift his curse. Maybe Louis has a pen-pal named Kirate who likes the same subjects as him. Maybe a classmate Amaterasin likes to gossip with is named Ember. It all depends on how much time I'm willing to spend on this.
As long as I'm not leading people on, making them wait anxiously for the game's release, I shouldn't worry too much. I'm not even trying to advertise it any more as that would make me feel rushed. I'd probably end up releasing a half-finished game or half-thought-out story and disappoint myself and others, if anyone would actually want to play it. I feel bad for people like Yandere Dev who's talent made people demand more and more until they turn away from the idea claiming that the free game is all a scam of some sort... even though it's a free game. Not getting my game noticed by anyone has actually been a blessing in that sense.
 ScribeEzra · Sun Jul 08, 2018 @ 11:45pm · 0 Comments |
