At times when I believe I have gained understand of my significant other everything slips and shifts; as if getting closer is dangerous. It always feels like there is some sort of secret or it is simply some sort of game. I always lose and am always left slightly stung, okay, maybe more than slightly ... I'm not sure what I do wrong, I wish I knew. Maybe I communicate too openly, my significant other always says they feel uncomfortable and can't tell me everything because that is the way they are. Deep inside I know it's all my fault really, somehow. You learn to swallow the pain ... I felt they were disgusted with me .. I honestly don't know and feel like crying. When they are the only one you ever talk to about everything. I don't know, maybe running from everything like I am planning will heal me. Once a soloist, always a soloist.
Wicked Alyce · Tue Oct 23, 2012 @ 07:01am · 0 Comments |