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When I hear your name, see your face
I feel a black spot on my heart
And I want to stop breathing
And I feel faint
But, that's pointless. You never existed anyways
YOU, on the other hand, did.
And you were turning out to be the mud of my life
It's so hard
It's no good
It's so stupid
It's so tough
It's so difficult

I pressed the Enter button. Sorry.
I'm a different breed from you
I guess you weren't what I expected
But I still remember the last thing you said
"That's not a good enough excuse"
And, I thought I would be okay
I thought I'd recover
But, now I get it...

YOU'RE the reason I am this way

I wish you knew what you put me through
I wish you understood the way I hurt
But, I don't exist to you anymore


You aren't the same
You also don't exist
You have blond hair
You look so perfect
You act so caring
And it's sad because
You're in my mind
And you always will be

It feels lonely
It feels black
Like I don't need to breathe
I just need to feel better
I don't need to live
I just need to feel better
And my only hope is that you'd make me feel alright
But you don't

YOU never wanted me
You just wanted to be in my pants
You wish you could be everything she was
You left me first. I never left you
You abandoned me
And you never helped me
It still feels black
And so out of shape
Just when I hear your name
Or see your face



Where are you?
I can't search through 7 billion people
Are you real?
Are you out there?
Or are you just in my head...?
Am I dreaming?
Or am I just in hell?
What's your name?
Your hair is nice
I want to meet--


... It was only a dream...
... Only a dream...



I miss seeing eyes like that
Nobody ever looks at me the way you do
... But you don't exist...
... You're just a dream...