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It’s now Thursday, and Mike texted last Sunday about wanting to hang out. So considering he probably already had his day off, or it’s today, I’d say it’s pretty safe to say he’s not getting back with me. That last part was written with sarcasm. It isn’t surprising that he didn’t follow through, but it still hurts a little. I had hope that he was actually serious about it this time. To make things worse, I actually texted him about it yesterday because I was curious as to what he would say. I asked “So, are we going to hang out?” I wanted to see if he would give me some excuse or if he would actually progress with plans. He just didn’t text back. Well, I guess that’s my answer, isn’t it? I’ve only initiated texts to him a few times, and though he doesn’t carry on a conversation, he usually texts back within a couple minutes. One time it took him a couple hours to reply, but at least he still replied. Absolutely nothing this time. There should be no surprise there either. So it really leaves me wondering if he has no social or common courtesy skills, or if he’s really just ******** with me. He’s probably thinking “Oh, it’s been a month, why don’t I get this girl’s hopes up again and ask if she wants to hang out?!” It’s just a crock of s**t. Now, if I ever hear from him again (which might be ok), it’ll probably be in two or three weeks, where he’ll send a text saying something like “Hey. What’s up?” and I’ll reply something back, and then he won’t reply back anymore.

Then we have some feral kittens living under the deck that we’ve been trying to feed. We’ve only been able to grab one, and we seen he had worms around his a**s. Well, lately he hasn’t been eating very much food, and he’s really lethargic. When the others are running around, he’s just lying down or falling asleep. He’s skin and bones, so he needs to eat not only to gain weight, but we’ve been putting worm medicine in the food, so he needs to get some meds. I just don’t know what to do about it. I’m sure my mom and I will end up taking at least him to the vet since he doesn’t seem to be doing well. What I don’t know is if we should capture him and keep him inside. That way he’d be out of the elements and he wouldn’t have to compete with his siblings for food. But then there’s the chance that if we separate him, he’ll become despondent, and won’t even attempt to eat. Worrying about all the kittens in general, but especially the one, and in combination with the Mike situation, is making me physically sick to my stomach. Is it the worms or some other parasite eating away at the kitten? I hate parasites so much. I know I love pretty much every living creature, and that everything is supposed to serve a purpose, but I can’t help hating them for the way they prey on other animals like that, especially something as young and helpless as a kitten. It makes me angry and sick.