today was.. somewhat sad but nearly a happy ending in concluding of the day.
steven was at cross country today, well the first half of the day. i didn't know that until he had came back.
the day felt unbelievably long. recess felt long, for there was nobody to stare at nor to be stared by. the periods felt they would have never ended. we had science but we had played soccer instead.
after we had done playing, i went to my locker to get my lunch, but sadly, my friends told me that we had music.
we had two tests and i had one geography test to do.
both went very well, except the other half of my music test.
i was doing the B flat scale and i had thought i had pushed down the button on my clarinet to make the B flat noise, apparently i didn't and i made the same sounds over three times. of course i laughed at myself and my classmates laughed with me, because it was funny. but the teacher scratched that part off, he knew i knew the note, it's just that my fingers wanted to go somewhere else then the button to my instrument.
second break had came. finally. and i had got my lunch.
i seen steven walking down the hall, i dropped my lunch pail and ran right into his arms. i didn't care who seen, i just missed him so much.
i said to him quickly, glad to have you back, looked at him and ran to go pick up my lunch box.
i felt embarrassed, but happy all at the same time.
next recess came by.
(we have our lunch then go outside.)
and there was ginormous group running from me to steven.
i thought everyone had knew we were kinda together.
"so, hannah are you and steven dating?"
"are you two dating?"
would be said nearly 500 times, just in 20 minutes.
some girls are just waayyy too immature and over-react too much.
i'm dating some boy who i love, is that something to really freak out about?
my friend, nicole, was in the group and had said to me that he had admitted it that we were dating.
she asked just to make sure, and i said, yeah, we are.
catch is, she was kidding, steven had never said anything in the beginning, she just prowled it out of me.
i felt confused.
everybody thought i was confused about him.
i rejected the comments and said that i was confused with everyone and what they were saying. it was like me in a big, never-ending maze and i had to find my way out. not easy to focus.
so me and steven are officially dating. well to them, we were. we've been together for about a month now.
went to period number 5 and then 6 and it ended normally. nice and quiet.
and nobody talking about me and him.
wait, does passing notes count?
i gathered up my belongings and waited for steven to come out and meet me outside. he finally came out but i hadn't relaized since i had my earbuds in my ears. me and my friend, katherine. started walking. at least she wasn't the one who wasn't turned off about the whole thing, she was the one who i had a shoulder to cry on. gotta love people who are named katherine.
steven had sneaked up behind me, pulled out my earphones gently and kissed my ear. although, it was weird, i thought it was charming.
i turned around to steven and smiled at him like i always do. and i took out my earphones, wrapped them around my mp3 and put it in my coat pocket along with my cellphone and keys.
after we just started talking about how the girls in the group were pissing each other off and that we tried our best to keep it a secret.
he said that we tried but sometimes things are better left told. of course, you have to agree with the young one, their always right.
(crystal, you know that saying.)
he took my hand and swung his hand backwards with mine in his to tell me to slow down and keep our distances from them. how i can put it is that we were nearly on their tail.
katherine had said goodbye to me and steven did too. then we later heard whooping and yelling and "ow"ing from the girls who were in front of us who were know on the other street and going forward to the store. thank god for intersections. they had finally disappeared.
i had asked steven how he did in cross country. he pulled a number one printed on a piece of paper out of pocket. i stopped and looked at it and said.. "you won?!" with this massive smile on my face. then he took the number that was behind it and pull it out. the number was now 17.
even still, i had the big smile on him, because i knew he had beaten my "used to be" friend. even though it wasn't important, it just made me feel so proud.
i linked my arms into his and rested my head on his shoulder and said to him that i was still proud of him. then in the silhouette of us in the ground with him putting his head over mine just made me felt so safe inside.
he lifted up his head and i did soon, lifted up mine. the moment was perfect.
he had put his arm around my shoulders and gave out a small laugh.
i asked him what was so funny. he responded on how were we best friends back in grade 7 and now, were a couple. i did agree with him. i said back to him and looked directly into his eyes... maybe it was just suppose to be.
i fiddled with his fingers that he had dangling over my right shoulder then i soon moved my fingers into the spaces on his. he asked me the most strangest question ever.
why do people have spaces between their fingers?
i didn't know, but i replied with a smart answer and said that we'd be frogs and not humans. but what he had said, was the most heart-warming thing ever.
so the one who you care most about can hold your hand.
perfect moment right there.
we had finally reached to my servea, and i told him that i had to go. he hugged me for the longest time. it felt so precious to me.
as i walked onto the sidewalk into my servea, steven ran up behind me and hugged tightly, but gently. then did his childish move and nuggied my head and crossed the road. i turned around and playfully said thanks.
possible the best day i've ever had in the longest years.
[09.11.09]
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