Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

I feel changed today. I have no idea why though, it is probaly my friends and bf being there for me. I know I can't thank them enough, they are making me give up cutting once and for all. I already have my program all summer...well, it's a small price to pay for it. The people there say they want to help us. Sometimes it feels like they try to get in my head... I admit, it works. Today at my group I did have trouble talking, but it was easier than yesterday. I have to say sorry for putting everyone throught this, especially 5 people. I will not mention their names. But, they know who they are. I love you guys so much. I couldn't overcome this without you 5. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I can't do this by myself, so I ask of you guys to show emotional support. It may stop me forever, all I need to know is that my friends love and care about me. I don't know where I would be now without you guys. I don't really know how I met all of you, but most of you yes. I met one person through my bf. She is now one of my bestfriends. I will also be taking down some stuff on my profile. Like all the people, but I will put up the ones who are there for me. You guys remind me of.....Marie. She would never stop, she never knew when either. But, still you guys didn't give up hope on me, or me. I know I am stubborn and emotional, but you all helped me overcome the thing that took over my life. I am changed. I am returning back to the real Michelle. The one who doesn't cut, the one who doesn't try to run away. Today is the day I become the old me. The one I lost when I was very young. It was because of a loss, that's when I wallowed in self pity. I admit, I did for awhile. But this year was my father's 3-year anniversery of his death. It's been about a month since Marie's as well, but...The world better be ready for a new person.A new....me.