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And as i sit here i think
I think about you
and all the pain that you've caused
I think about all the times i needed you
and all of your flaws
Im so sorry i was a bad son,
Not good enough to make you stay,
Im sorry he wasnt the one,
But he hit you and made you run away,
I really need you here,
as a mother should be,
It feels like Im killin myself,
Just willin for help...
I miss you mom,
and all the dumb s**t you do,
I wish i was better,
But you will never see,
the child you never raised,
The man i will grow to be,
I hate you so much,
But at the same time i need you,
You are my mother,
but you are a failure,
I see me,
writing on this paper,
Waitin for some savior,
To come save me...
I'd give you all i should,
as a son,
I'd be the best child i could,
Just please be my mommy,
and let me sleep in peace...