Which is all fine and dandy, except for the life sucking part.
I was at karate today, and my aunt mentioned that she had picked up an application for me to work at Hobby Lobby, and I mentioned that I probably couldn't work there because after graduation, I was going to dye my bangs purple. She then proceeded to ruin my entire outlook on my future with one sentence. Job or purple hair.
Which sucks.
I get that she's trying to help, but that's not something you say to someone who was just looking at the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm graduating high school in two months, and I was just looking forward to getting to do, for the most part, things that I wanted to do. I was going to get to choose my college, my clothes, all that without having to listen to a rule saying that my Tripp pants are out of dress code or that I have to go here because I live in this zip code. And with that one single sentence, she ruined all that. Yeah, I can choose, but my choice is always going to be torn between two things: what I want and what I need. I want purple bangs, because I personally just want to be able to do something I couldn't before. I need a job, because I need to be able to pay for college. And suddenly I saw my entire life in front of me. What I want and what I need. Always against each other. And it's wrong and it's not fair, but that's how it is. No one ever gives anything to the people with dreams. It always goes to the ones who went with the flow and wanted to do what was expected. I can do what I want and be a starving artist, or I can get a desk job to feed myself.
Why bother with anything at all?
Just do what's expected of you and make your life as painless as possible, because being happy is just too much to ask.
