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we havent talked for days.i sit by the phone waiting for your call.each time the phone rings i think its you...but its not...i didnt sleep that night.as i sat up in my bed i was thinking where could you be.yet the night go the best of me and i fell asleep.
the next day i wake up.i looke at your picture that was on my wall.i was still wondering what happened.why didnt you get my message.as i get ready for school i hear voices.i walk closer and closer to the voices and i see your mom.i look at her wondering why was she up so early.my mom was siting next to her.they both looked at me,as if they wanted to tell me something but they didnt know how to put it.your mom looked down at a picture of you that she had in her hand.my mom walked up to me."listen i dont know how to put this to you honey....but your friend anna pasted away in a car crash early this morning"......
i soon find myself runing.thinking your still alive.thinking you didnt leave me.thinking my mom lied and your somewhere out here and i could find you.i ran and looked everywhere.then i ran to the block.the block that had your blood on the floor.your phone crushed.the car still there.and a outline of a body.
this was all wrong.this wasnt suposed to happen.your still suposed to be here.not....there...
i ran past the crowd and walked up to the spot were your body used to be.i picked up the little pieces of your phone and looked at them.remembering what the phone used to look like.remembering you holding it in your hand.
the day of your funeral came.i still didnt believe you were dead it couldnt be.your still alive somewhere out there.

i walk in the church and look down at you.....i was wrong...my mom was right and you were gone....i didnt want this to be...i thought this was just a nightmare and i would wake up at any moment.but i didnt....with tears running down my face i took your cold hand.and tryed to think that you were happy now but i couldnt....

i sit at home now.thinking why did it happen to you....not me.your life was so perfect it didnt need to be ended to quickly.you had everything that was best.i just wish that you were here now.because i want to let you know that you were the best friend anyone could have.that no one could never ever ever forget you....



this was writen to my friend anna who sadly passed away
march 19 2006...may your soul rest well