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understanding is key.understanding you must know and must see how people feel...you must understand,yet people dont...people just take it as the saying"your crazy" or "your a weirdo"....but you say that because you dont understand how it feels to be left alone...how it feels to get followed by these things that you want to go away....you dont understand how it feels to see someone specail someone loveing to you dear to you....die right infront of you....you dont understand how it feels to sleep and dream of these faces you would love to see again.faces that you miss yet faces that are gone....gone forever...
understanding is key.understanding you must know and must see how people feel.....

to know how it feels to see things other people hasnt seen....to know the time of your death.right right its just like a movie only thing is that its real...its pain its hard to stop thinking that you might die out any day of the week,month,year....

i try i try....to look to the light to see whats right...to think of the better to do the right things to make a life better living....i try i try...but...in the middle of anything the thought follows...taping me on the shoulder saying"its time" just like death or like in jail when they open you cell door and say its time....

to stop thinking to stop breathing to stop my heart from hurting to stop my stomachs pain to stop falling out in the middle of class to stop to stop to stop....thats all i ask just to stop....to stop this pain to stop this mad.....you dont understand...but the thing is i dontunderstand why must you want me living if im a dead man walking....theres nothing that can help me better is to just lift off into the skys and fly forever....to float in the air and to feel free to stop the pain....to...to leave and watch the earth from begining to end....