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I better win. I better win.
Wow. I was just looking at my wishlist because I was going to delete um... Rich Copper Slinky Split Dress? that the overseer gave to me. And, as I was looking at it, this came to me:
One step forward, two steps back.
That's exactly how I feel! I am not very good at saving up for things, and Gaia just makes it so much harder for me. I need to find some rich friends or something. The only problem is, I am not a friendly person. I mean, really, how often do you think, "I want a friend who is quiet, too smart for me, and when she does talk, every word that comes out is a lie!" Yeah, I don't think anyone wants a friend like that.
Oh well.
So, let me add some music so I can write about something happier. Without music, it gives me too much time to think. I am not someone you should leave alone to think. And, yet, people always leave me to myself, giving me a very long time to think, which brings me to these bizarre conclusions and paranoias.
Today was History Day. Or, yeah. Today was History Day. I think. Yes, it was our county history day. Janelle, Julia, and I did a documentary and I got up at 7:00 a.m. [on a Saturday, I know, crazy, right?] and got to my school around 7:30 for breakfast. And then, around 8:30 we had our interview thingy with the judges. I think, no, I know, we rawked it. Tomorrow is the awards ceremony. I hope we win! I worked so flippin hard on that project. And, it would get me some attention from my family.
You see, I may have explained this before, but, my sister and I are the... black sheep in my dad's side of the family. Or, [haha] the brown sheep since we are half Mexican. My other cousins have richer parent's so they can do a lot more than us, like go to a private school for dancers. Yes, they are dancers. Professionals. And they are younger than me!! You see how that makes my sister and I feel? Pshh, especially my sister! She slacked off in high school, and now she is trying to get into UCLA and uh... this other university I can't remember the name of, but she is having hard time because she didn't do so well in high school. She is 23 and has just recently decided to finish college. Sigh. At least I have brains, but she has the beauty xP
Hmm... I am so tired. I feel like... sleeping. Maybe I should take a short nap before I go out with Hope later. Ah, that sounds nice. And Saturday Night Live is tonight, so a nap would be good. So I can stay awake unti 1 o'clock. But I will probably not be able to fall asleep. But I will rest. Oh, but I want to write!
IwannawinIwannawinIwannawinIwannawin.
Sorry, I just HATE losing. HATE IT HATE IT HATE HATE HATE IT. It's no fun. People say, "Don't worry about winning, just have fun!" Oh, but what fun is it if you lose? Yeah, that's right. None. I would be so happy if we could make it to State.
You know what else? I need to go make some jewelry.
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