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i remember when i was only 5 years old and i made a list on how my life would be like when i get older:
i would love my dad more than my mom
i would play basketball forever
i would never cut myself or hurt myself
most important i would love my parents and live with them forever

i was wrong about what my life...i wanted my life to be perfect like everyone else...but i was wrong about my prediction and it always will be wrong...

i hate my father more than my mother.he forgot most of my life...he left the same day i wrote this dam list

i did play basketball....but i suck at it so i just quiet playing it forever i cant get any better...

i do cut myself and hurt myself...every drop of blood that falls to the ground is another mistake that i would make in life...im no good at everything....i cant do nothing but annoy and be a birden to everyone

i dont live with my parents now...i live with my aunt...my dad came over the other day and he didnt noticed me until my aunt said something...wat and a**...i just walked away instead of takeing the chance of geting to know him better....it would be better to have known him when i was younger....

i would never predict my future again....it would be wrong again....every step i take everything i do it wrong...im sure i would never get anything right