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im still wondering y i cant type in anything as my topic or whatever u call it.... but thats not the point of this. this is to talk about "a peice of my heat" thats the name of the play pnp [[the highest level drama class @ my skool is doing]] and i saw it. it was amazing, but they have 6 preformances. my bf paul is in all of them, but i can only get to see one. and that makes me really mad. my dad just comes up with reasons y i cant c it.... and then he just acts lyk its ok that he ruins opertunitys like this. its stupid. not only do i want to c my bf be wonderful again, but i also want to c my friends do great too. beacuse that class has more girls than boys, the girls cycled. and last week i saw some chicks, and this week its all new chicks... same paul though heart im really upset than i cant c the show. my little sister wants to c it too, but he doesnt "have any desire" to pick us up from the school after the show. thats not even a problem right now. some one that lives in our area can take us home, and he can just sit here... like usual. hes haveing this problem with his mom right now, and hes taking it out on us... its not kool. he was supposed to leave yesterday to go see her, cuz she stoped eating. and he has been upset ever since he got the call. my grandma lives in ohio, and we live in san diego... its a while away...... anyway. i think i should get to see the show with my little sister. its only $6 each... and it would be paid for by other people that want me to see the show. i really wanted so see it as much as i could, but idk... my dad has something againts me doing what i want to do. he said this lie a while ago "i want you to be happy, and i want you to have a life" and the only reason i say that its a lie is because he knows what makes me happy, and he knows what makes me happy, and yet he isnt letting either of those happen. im asking him to do things like this and there is always some reason that i cant do it. i wanted to go hang out with my boyfriend on a saturday... and because everyone else in my family was doing something, that ment that i couldnt... beacause it wasnt in their plans. it would have nothing to do with them. i was gunna get picked up, and dropped off again. but his excuse was that it wasnt convieninet... but i dont really understand. it was convienient... for every one. and i would have been back home when everyone else was getting home that day. really... he just finds reasons to say no. and whats really annoying about it... my little sister gets to do basicly whatever she wants. she is in this club called P.A.P.I.A. and she has been able to do all kinds of things, and we have had to wake up @ 5 on a saturday to take her some where for it... but its not ok for me to do things that dont involve gonig out of your way? yes... that makes sence.....if he dosent want me to have fun, he can just say that now. but if he does, he needs to get the stick out of his but, and let me live. and let me have fun with my friends. and let me grow up with out all this crap in my way. if there wasnt drama before, he finds a way to put drama in there. he cant just take things how they are... he has to make a big deal about things, and have the last word. its so annoying. little kids are more respectful then he is. and then he always has these stupid lines like "im the dad and your not" or "you need to remember who is the child and who is the adult" well father... when u say things like that... u seem like the child. adults dont say things like that. GROW UP! AND LET ME GROW UP!!! I DONT WANT TO BE LIKE YOU WHEN I GROW UP!!! I DONT WANT TO MAKE MY KIDS LIFE SUCK EGGS CUZ I HAVE SOME UNRESOLVED PROBLEMS! GET OVER IT! THIS IS MY LIFE! MY TURN TO LIVE!!!!!!!!!! U CAN DIE IF U NEED TO... BUT I NEED TO MOVE ON.... I NEED TO LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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