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Okay, so I'm starting to really tire of this. Some time back I had someone in my life that I no longer have around/talk to/see/etc. i won't go into all the messy details here right now though, because the whole thing is just waaaaay to involved.
Anyway, It was understandable that right after this relationship ended I found myself randomly thinking about them, having dreams with them in it, etc. but not too much time passed before really it was a few and far between thing to give any thought to the person at all. i've been quit contently living in that state ever since, but lately that's changed. at first it was just a couple dreams in the same week. that got me thinking during the day too though, and after the third dream the whole thing was really on my mind. then i started hearing random mentions of the person, and things began to remind me of them. don't ask what set the whole thing off, i really don't know. the dreams just came out of no where. all i know is now it's getting sorta annoying and even a little creepy. so how do i go back to how things were?
although ... one thing did happen that makes since as a trigger now that i think of it. there was this girl i knew as a little kid, and she's been living in the same apartment building as me for the past, i don't know, couple years i think it's been. she never tried to talk to me or anything, and i guess she probably just didn't recognize me. i liked it that way, because ... well again i won't go into all the messy details lol anyway, things were a good balance there.
she just moved out about the time my dreams started, and in my first dream the protagonist was her, but half way through the dream is when this other person jumped in, and then the two started switching back and forth (you know how dreams can be). so i guess the two are somehow tied together in my mind.
hmm well that's sort of a comfort to know, maybe there's something there i can work through mentally/emotionally that will be me back to normal here. great! thanks for letting me write here ^^ it really helped. i'm feeling better about the whole thing already : )