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I just finished writing a book report -whew- Glad I got that off my hands. Ok, so yeah, I am still alive, in case anyone was wondering or cared at all. I have just been really busy. Or, well, not really busy, just really tired. I haven't really felt like coming on the computer except for on the weekends. And I am already counting down the days until October break. Uh, I think it's 5 more weeks? Maybe 4... ah, whatever.

Life at my new school has been pretty suckish for me. I haven't made many new friends, but I have made some new friends! Their names are: Genie (I already knew her from softball but yeah), Allen, Dominique, Sara, Jose, Aisha... and I have met a lot of other people but I am not too sure whether or not to consider them friends.

Anyways, today, my friends Jose (who just happens to like my best friend), got his schedule changed! I hate that about our school. People are always getting their schedules changed out of nowhere. So, I've only had my schedule changed once, and that was because I could not be a library TA so I joined leadership instead, but that was only my 7th period that was changed. So back to Jose- I was (and still am) really sad because I liked being able to talk to him during class, because I don't have many friends in any of my classes. I only have friends in like, 3 classes now. I am such a loner, loser, and nerd.

Oh! Today, this one girl I very much dislike, did something very rude to me! Ok, so Hope and Jose were talking in 'private', even though there isn't much privacy in this school, or any other one really... anyways! So they were talking and this girl, Joselyn, I think that is her name, came up to them and was trying to but into their conversation, so Hope told her to go sit down by me while she was talking to Jose, and then she would talk to her. Joselyn didn't know who I was so I waved to show her who I was and she was like, "EW! Uh, no." And then she just left. So that got rid of her but it really hurt my feelings. sad

I'm not used to being a loser. At my old school, all my friends were popular, and I had been going there since kindergarten, so I wasn't a complete loser, yeah know? I was probably the biggest loser of my group, but I had a little bit of authority (I guess you could call it that) since my 'friends' were popular. But now... I am a loser. Nerd. Loner. Freak. Whatever you wanna call me!

At least I have Hope, I know she will always be my friend, though sometimes she does hurt my feelings, and she doesn't understand why even though I've explained to her any times why I don't like being called anorexic, especially because I am not! I eat twice as much as her, so you can't call that anorexic, unless she eats nothing, then maybe you can a little, but she doesn't. She eats pretty normal. Sometimes it also kinda hurts me when she says this one girl she just met is her 'best friend'. I hope I am not being pushed aside by this prettier, more popular girl. It has happened to me before so I will understand...

I am not very good for someone's reputation, if that's what they care about, which my last best friend did. Her name was Jessica. You may or may not know about her. She was my best friend since kindergarten but then in 6th grade, she left me (it sounds like she was my girlfriend when I say that xP) for this fat, ugly, rich, popular girl, and this other ugly, popular girl that all the guys liked. Ugh, they disGUST me! I can't stand them! My mother doesn't like the fat one either. At my Halloween party one year, she was totally rude to my mom, rolling her eyes and such. And then she wonders why I didn't invite her to my birthday party! Huh!

It's 8:02, my computer says. I guess I should go... I am kinda hungry.

See ya.