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tomorrow i probably won't get on here at all, because it's the first day casey has had off in months o.o so we're going to make the most of it and go on a day long date.

we're getting up semi-early to catch the bus into spokane and have plans to shop, get hair cuts, feed the ducks and walk around river front park, hit the theater, and have lunch out.

after we get home, we're gonna take our dogs out and let them run up and down for a good while, to make up for the fact that we'll be gone most of the day and they'll be stuck inside with nothing to do.

in other news... i had this HORRIBLE nightmare last night O.O seriously, i haven't had one that bad in AGES. it was basically a horror movie (which i hate as it is) crossed with a generally stressful family event (a typical bad dream for me).

i think it means that my little de-stress bath/ceremony succeeded in bringing the unconscious stress to the surface, but didn't get it completely out. i'll have to do it a few more times, and really work on this otherwise i'm bound to face more sleepless nights or worse... more nightmares o.o;

i came to some conclusion this morning, but now i can't remember.... oh wait! i remember, in my dream the psycho attacker (horror movie part) was outside and we were in my childhood home. casey sensed her first, she got this strange feeling and said we should call the dogs in and lock the door. we got the dogs in, but when i went to lock the door she said not to bother with the pad lock or chain. i asked her if she was sure, and she said "yeah, it wasn't that bad of a feeling, i'm sure the regular lock will be fine."

that's when the attacker showed up o.o she was pushing through the normal lock and was freaking out and trying to hold the door shut. i told casey "see i knew we shoulda used the other locks too" but she wasn't hardly bothered at all by any of this. she kept saying, oh no it's not that bad, and no we still don't need the other locks.

i thought she was crazy and was screaming for her to help me. i asked her to help hold the door or put the chain lock or at least think of something else that might help keep the psycho chick out.

before i go on with this dream though, this was the point i wanted to mention. i realized that this was a mirror of what was going on irl.

usually, and lately especially, casey's the one who freaks out more then me and i'm pretty calm about s**t. but right now the roles have seemingly reversed. that's what the dream was telling me. that's the key. that's what i have to work on.

now i just have to figure out what it is i'm so stressed about.... and then vent it. i'll try another bath and some meditation tonight and see if that doesn't help.