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When you really find the right guy.
Recently, well you know if you read the rest of my journal entries, I found a guy. He is amazingly sweet. He makes me laugh. He was even my first date. Well I found out that I like him more and more every day. I had a guy before him. The guy that was perverted, energetic, and way wimpy. I would always beat him up cause he did something peverted. I thought that was as good as I could get. A wimp that got me to beat up his enemies. Im not pretty. Im not skinny. Im not a blonde. So I thought that was my max. Well that guy moved. I was lonely. I thought that the only guy that could ever like some one like me moved out of my life forever. I would never be happy again. I became depressed. Everything lost color. Anyone that came near me got the crap beat out of them. I lost friends. Then summer came after a depressing year blurred together. Family problems. Threats of devorice. Therapy. New school year. My friend Samantha was in my spanish class. First few days she sat at a full table with two girls and one boy with her. Eventually, I got to sit with her. The boy was quiet. I never really saw him say anything. He was just a quiet boy that happened to be in my 3 and 5 period. Well we talked. He began to warm up. As days passed I would practically run to class, telling myself how stupid it was to be so into a guy. This went on for months. Then he asked me out. We went on a date. And you know what I still rush to class. I learned that I dont need to settle for some whimp just cause he the only guy around. All I had to do is wait. I was rewarded greatly. You know, I think my guy is perfect. heart
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