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k well when i get really bored i do things like this listening to gay music like paris hilton looking for people who talk to me but thats not proply wat will be best for my inner self cuz right now its screaming for paris to stop.XD


I'm really worried. A close friend didn't show up to rehersal and she didn't call in. No one can get ahold of her. I'm seriously worried about what happened. I'm freaking out and I just can't help but think that the worst things have happened. I'm scared I don't want to lose her! I can't lose her!! If she was gone then I would no longer have the will to live on!! I need to find out if she is ok. There is always that chance that i'm getting worked up over nothing but I still can't be sure. How do I know that she's not in the hospitle right now?! What if I never see her again. What if she was taken or shot!! What if one of her parents are dieing!!!! Or her sister is dieing!!!!!! I'm so scared that something horrible has happened and I just can't get my mind off of it!! I really don't want to think about all this but what if i'm right. What if she really is hurt and I'm not there to help her!! I can't leave her!!!! I won't be able to sleep. What if I have a nightmare about it. I'm so worried!! I just want her to call and say that everything is fine. Or have her little sister send me a facebook message saying "what's up?" I'm so worried I think i'm going to cry!! I don't want to be negative but what if it's true. I can't help it. I don't want to jinx her! I don't want to do anything that would put her in any kind of danger!! I would never be able to forgive myself!! If she is hurt I would never forgive myself for letting it happen. I'm so goddanmed worried!!!! I just can't have her hurt!! I can't have her in any type of danger!! I just want someone to say that she is ok. That I was over reacting and that she is fine! I want to talk to her right now and know that she is ok. I will even pray that she is safe if it helps. I would do anything to know that she is fine. I would do anything. I need to know that she is ok. I would do anything to know and see that she is ok and nothing bad has happened to her. I would give anything to see that she is ok and unscathed! I would give my soul to see that she is ok. I wish that there was some way that she could just give me a sign. That there was someway that the world could give me some kind of sign to let me know that I was being stupid for worrying and that it was all just a bunch of silly nonsense. I want someone to get these bad thoughts from my head. I want to think positive so why can't I? I want to know that she is ok and unharmed. Why am I being tortured like this?! This is horriblly unfair!! Please I need something!! God I can worry like this much longer!! Please if there is any higher being make sure that her and her family are ok. foxy9 · Wed Jul 22, 2009 @ 03:20am · 0 Comments


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