Kimi wa mou yume no tsuzuki todoku hazu mo nai koto da to wakatteiru
Anti-Nostalgic Gravitation
In liveing memory of Jan gray mother of three children and 6 chikens
Suberbia
I've become the light bord opperator for Suburbia, and i really like it pretty well. to be honest going into this i didnt know what to think, i was scared of working with michle montiegro for my Lighting desinger (LD) just beacause i never had the impression that he liked me much... that made me upset. however not so upset as the fact that my Knee tripped out on me and put me out of commistion for a while. im still not 100% but imlike 98% so its prety good. I have to say that i was rather plesently suprised by the way that michiles been treating me. I mean hes not stand offish and he understands that ive never run a light bord before so hes teaching me what to do and how to do it. I understand more now about lighting a show than i learned from just Dan teaching me in my light class. i guess nothing makes up for first hand experiance. its fun. i mean its boring to sit through a play and watch the same characters fail to get there lives together over and over but its almost like its hiting me with a message. not to mention the fact that i realized how prity stacy could be. was really shocking... i think its because she so acurately played her character because i still dont see her as attractive or anything. its just that shes good at this... theres a point where she dies... and i think that death itsself has become a verry sensative subject with me... i mean jan... and now my grandmother is not doing so well... lung cancer normaly means you knocking on heavens door. but its just the feeling that... okay stacy she dies.... shes a nursing assitant... her life is sad.. she watches people who are dieing int he hospital... the takes care of them as they die... everyone there she bonds with dies... and she starts drinking... then takes a few tomany pills... and walks off stage... then thats all you ever see her... its so damn sad... i really did wana cry... but... ither way that would be unprofestional... and i cant be that here... not anymore... lately though ive had this feeling that even the techs think im ... stupid... or annoying... and i really wana go home right now... i think i will... ill see you latter people... i have a long night a head of me.