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why do i feel this way? why do i feel like there's something missing in my life? why do i feel as though everything i do or say breeds unhappiness and despair in people? why di i have to lie to the people in my life that only want to help me? i know deep down in my heart i wan to stop, but i can't. i'm powerless to stop anything that goes on in my life. it's as though i'm forced tolooke through my eyes while things just go on, like my life's been pre-recorded and everything i say is not what i really wanted. i can't help the way i feel, i help help doing things, it's just that this life makes me react to different things, and it mkes me think of the possible futures before they occur.