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emo stay away from the darkness that lingers in your hearts, minds, souls. No matter how it tempts you so to take even a step inside, i know it from a point of view that now accepts everything, that it will leave you wanting to escape your mind, wanting to destroy everything around you to be happy when the things you destroyed were really the things that could have pulled you back from the darkness and could have made you happy once more. stay away from the darkness for it'll keep a firm hold on you and will soon drive you insane, while i barely cling to it, desperately. i took that one curious step inside once, and now look where it's got me. i know nothing of the things that i loved before i stepped inside, but though it has a firm hold on my mind, it cannot grip my heart because i hold my friends close to me as close as possible, and let their light shine as bright as my hert will allow. i admit, i may not be the closest to my friends or even My Girl friend, but i'm trying to change that now, and though we are seperated by a wall of countless lies i've told them, i am making up for it by reaching out with my heart to embrace them. so whenever you get the sudden urge to hurt those around you or even yourself, think of your friends and let the light of their hearts lead the way not only to your salvation, but to your recovery from the darkness, because everything has both a weakness, and a back door.
i am sorry, but this was on my mind, so i just had to share it. i am sorry if it is a lot, but i believe that everyone should read this and hold it dearly in their hearts or minds. for i took a step into the darkness and daily i am plunged deeper into it, but i am slowly coming back to the light, as many of you may decide to go into the darkness, do not even take a step. think both logically and poetically when things go bad for you and it will all be okay. at least, that is my thought. smile, for in the days to come, you may see a shadow of yourself in someone you pass by and even in your friends, but it may not be the kind of shadow you'd hoped to leave beind in them, or the shadow you wanted to see. it is up to you to change theway YOU are and not who THAT PERSON is. you are you, you are not GOD or even their parents. you are responsible for the influence YOU want to leave in the world, and even if it is a bad thing, in time people may thank you for that thing that you've done because it may give them a deeper insight on the person that they are, or who you were or what the world or even the people who occupy it will become, or even what kind of person they are.
it all comes down to the choice you make you step into the darkness, for if you do, then tha is YOUR soul on the line. you may blame others for what happened, like i have, but it isn't fair that you are not blamed for the mistake that you made and they are. YOU made the choice to do it, THEY didn't do anything but determine if they want to give up THEIR soul to scar yours for life. everything that is said to us is either a healing, a blessing or an attack that'll leave us scarred. if you don't believe me, the YOU step into the Darkness and tell me what you see. i see a confused little boy, sad and alone, shivering in the lonely cold, with nothing to see for miles except for the many branching paths that is his life. he cries to himself as he looks from one path to the next, scared at what might come next. i tell you to stay in the light and the choices will come naturally to do the right thing, not the wrong thing and end up confused like me.